How They Make Me Feel
"People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But people will never forget how you made them feel."
I don't plan manic but I sure do know when to take advantage of mania. I've been on a high all holiday weekend, and a recent IG story from my friend Hackim, citing this Maya Angelou quote reminded me of what an impact this poet/author has had on my life. I shared this story with my school during Black History Month last year:
Hi all, in celebration of Black History and Liberation month, I thought I would share how I discovered author and poet, Maya Angelou, during my junior year in high school.
I don't remember how, but I chose to read the book I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou. Wow. I devoured the book. I was enrolled in AP English at the time, and I decided to write an essay about the book. Unbeknownst to me, my teacher submitted my essay to a UCSB literature contest, and I placed second, earning a scholarship to the school's writing program. Stay with me here, I know this is supposed to be about Maya Angelou and not me. I recall sitting in front of the panel of UCSB writing professors who judged the contest, and turned down their offer of a scholarship.
You see, I had the worst case of imposter syndrome when accepting my award and scholarship. Below is a picture of Mr. Tran, as a high school junior, at the awards ceremony at UCSB. If you notice, I am not even looking at the camera. I felt like an imposter and that I did not belong in that group of winning writers. Back then, I struggled in AP English, I struggled to write, and I really did not enjoy the writing process. I was certain that my essay on the book, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, was a fluke, brought on by the divine intervention that is Maya Angelou. I was certain that I could never repeat that level of writing, and I would be damned if I accepted a scholarship to write. I really did believe that Angelou's writing inspired me to a level of writing that I could not sustain, and that it was the book, and not me, that was responsible for the essay.
Since then, I have explored the poet, Maya Angelou, more than the author. She has been a part of my life, on and off, since my junior year in high school. When YouTube started to become a thing, I finally got to hear some of Angelou's poems, spoken in her own voice. Wow. I hope my sharing this story will inspire some of you to pick up a Maya Angelou book, or read one of her poems. In celebration of Black History and Liberation Month, I leave you with a video of Maya Angelou reading her poem, When I think About Myself, in 1988 (my junior year in high school!).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9ywTJvBwTc
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